gawwwwwd i abuse my voice too much
i got it goin at chorus again
then just belted boho rhapso and carwash too much
i get the feeling cody doesnt like me
i mean, if he doesnt thats his loss
but he seems like a cool kid
and id love to be his friend
anywho
the party on friday was phenominal
it was pretty slow at first
but we danced a hella lot by the end
we also managed to get every guy to dance
cept for that one kyle kid
but i didnt know him so i didnt force him
i party-boied a lot of suckas, too
and it was snowing
so everytime it got too hot
we jsut ran around outside
i have officially fallen in love with four brothers
its an amazing movie
considering its all about gangsters, lol
marky mark is in it
gawd, he was obnoxious back in those days
'i wanna dedicate this book to my PENIS'
wtf
thanks for wising up mark wahlberg
and i believe its pretty safe to say
garrett hedlund needs to get his ass in more movies
cuz hes a talented biznatch
i remember the first time i saw him
was when my sister dragged me to see eragon
i was like 'screw eragon, id tap that dark lookin guy!'
hahaha how i love irony
totally didnt make the connection for the longest time
anywho
this weekend = stage crew and a trip to frederick
the 18th = trip to mediterraneo w/ gsa
speaking of which
ive definately mde friends w/ sam
but im not sure about viv
sometimes shes like 'yaaaay bekki'
then other times, you can sense the damn tension b/t us
i dont think i like her much
or at all....lol
but i feel like im aobut to hurl, so toodles!

Where Is She? bed How Does That Make Her Feel? sick What Is That Noise? the worm and the bird

sooooooooo
i definately dont wanna get bk with ollie
but it seems like we are flirting like hell
and doing that eye-rape thing again [LAWL eyerape]
&& it annoys me
cuz im totally not into him in anyway
hes kinda boring to be honest
&& i am still holding out for troy
[though i think i should wait til next year
before i keep laying down the moves]
&& i should stop clinging to pat like a leech
whenever he so much as passes by
god EFFING damnit dad
he jsut came in to get pissed at his cell phone
its kinda unerving to type this while hes right there
anywho
ive got so much to study for
and all these projects to do
i will be so so hapy when next monday is over
oh oh oh
&& alex didnt bother to show up today
[cuz she has a fuckin COLD]
so i had to replan our whole project
seeing as she had the material
so ollie helped me finish god bless his soul
but she just pisses me off to no end
so does donaldson
anywho
ackerman actually came up with something witty today
then again, it was a bush joke
so it wasnt that hard
but i still laughed
he was talking about the bush library
how it had one book and tons of little shiny things
haha
and on that note
im gonna go take a piss, read some ff, and go to bed
 

Where Is She? Bed How Does That Make Her Feel? sleepy What Is That Noise? Our Friend Lazarus Sleeps - I Am Ghost

 ahhhhhhhhh today
i was dissappointed that record & tape traders
didnt have the magazine i wanted
i could have sworn they did...
anywho
moving on
dance was fabulous, as usual
though tay was kinda upset
and ariel had to sit out of jazz
marj got me cadbury eggs when we went to westminster
yumm =]
i also enjoyed 4th mod immensly!!!
stela, jess, oliver and i had some funn times
&& i didnt totally fail that vocab test
katie brought my tomboi side out, though
we got really rough
like, slapping each other across the face with folders
and pushing each other into walls and fountains
it was hilarious
i also got to walk with pat to 4th mod
i love it when he puts his arm around my waist
[though where the hell do i put my hand then???]
as girly as that sounds
i dunno, it just makes me feel like he cares XD
oh oh oh
&& i accidentally threw away my 'luck off' pin
and yesterday was trash disposal day
so say goodbye to that dream =[
i totally wanted to cry watching four brothers yesterday, too
i mean, they ALWAYS have to kill my favorite character
DONT THEY?!
i was seriously upset
anywho
must go do the dishes

Where Is She? bedroom chair How Does That Make Her Feel? blah What Is That Noise? the shake [aweful feeling] - my american heart

well, we got that snowday
though it barely did ANYTHING
so im guessin my little pact w/ god is working out so far
&& i did my part: finished 'the scarlet letter; worked on the poster; cleaned dishes; ballet; researched mcr [lol]
but im still nervous about getting the tickets tomorrow
marj is taking me out afterwards to either take my mind off it or celebrate
she wants to see a movie, and i hope its a good one
im also gonna swing by rtt or fye to pick up more moozik, hopefully
&& maybe even drag her to get some italian =]]]
on a darker note, my dad made me do a u-y in my mood after dance
i love him [seeing as he gave me life]
but i do NOT like him as a person
he is not a good man in my eyes, though many people would tell me i am wrong
thats cuz they only see him when hes in public and being perky
they dont know what shit  goes on in my family
&& im not about to tell them, so i will shut my mouth when they gush about him
im totally listening to lostprophets over and over right now
i dunno, by they always soothe me when i am in a bad mood
its like their music conveys so much truth
they really are an amazing band
anywho
enough obsessing [IAN WATKINS IS THE SEXX now im done]
thats about it for my day
didnt really do anything FABULOUS
though i tlaked to my bff
apparently she didnt go into john hopkins today
it was actually scheduled for next thursday
oh well, it was nice to tlak to her anyway
and christian was whining about missing moi
so that made my heart soar
cuz i seriously miss that kid
hes like a brother to me in so many ways
and i found out nicky is dating weston
i knew weston was gay
but i should have seen nicky bieng bi
it was so obvious
apparently david came out too
he never acted totally straight either, lol
gawd, i think im the only straight person left!!!
not that that is a problem
i would rather date a bi guy than a straight guy
they tend to have more sense XD
ahhhh mumsy is calling moi, toodles

Where Is She? bedroom chair How Does That Make Her Feel? nervous What Is That Noise? burn burn - lostprophets

its supposed to snow hella lot tonite
so much that school is totally outta the question tomorrow
watch it still be in session
&& i will be totally NOT ready
anywho
gots a couple cds today
a7x; citizen cope; green day; nickelback; bullet for my valentine; fob
&& i also checked a book out of the school library
its called the burn journals
reminded moi of my fav book [invisible], so i decided to start reading it
seeing as i could either hang out in the library
or sit through my sisters academic club [yeck]
cuz you have to have supervision if youre in the school after 3 pm
[though they have yet to grab me yet when im slinking around]
and ms brown doesnt care if im in there all by myself
cuz she knows me as this good kid from gsa
&& im constantly wandering around there on my own
seeing as my sister and i drive in really early and 
im usually just walking around the halls afterschool
while waiting for her to finish whatever clubs/jobs she needs to do
i swear to god i love that school when its empty
i dunno, maybe i jsut like bieng in empty buildings period
its just so calming, though
anyway, i digress
so i found this book in the suicide section
&& decided to read the first page, which i often do
the next thing i know, ive read about 100 pages
and ms brown is closing the media center
so i decided jsut to check it out
now that it took me ages to get that little story out, moving on!
so here i am laying in bed
&& praying for that snow to come
&& that i will be able to obtain those tickets on saturday
i swear to god i will clean and do homework and be productive and be athletic tomorrow
if we dont have school and i can get those tickets
plzzzzzzzzzzzz

Where Is She? laying in bed How Does That Make Her Feel? hopeful What Is That Noise? jesus of suberbia [its replaying in my head]